Moving up to St Johns at the beginning of this year was a big move.
An intimidating and big move.
And I’m glad that I have done it.
I am glad to be here.
It is a privilege.
I feel that deeply.
But I also feel that I have sacrificed much to be here.
a student has a lot less fun than even a church worker.
I miss my Wellington friends and colleagues (family) deeply.
there are far fewer opportunities gifted to me.
I miss the conversations, the risks, the vulnerability.
I miss being somebody. Anybody.
These sacrifices are a good thing
but they are still sacrifices
and they still hurt.
And sometimes I just need to acknowledge that.