For those of you who don’t know, I’m early in the process of figuring out whether I’m called to ordination as a Priest in the Anglican Church. In two weekends time I will be heading off to the discernment weekend. But for tonight it was a desperate effort to get some of the overdue paperwork dealt with. Had a great evening hanging with some of the Karori crew, then snuck into the office for some productive time.
The prospect of ordination excites me greatly.
But it terrifies me.
Sometimes a dream is so grand that reality would only seek to ruin it.
Sometimes insecurities rob us from ourselves.
Sometimes it’s a bold step.
Sometimes it’s a tentative movement based purely on the encouragement of friends.
Sometimes I know.
Sometimes I just know.
At the moment I’m wrestling.
I’m fat. I’m lazy. I’m boring. I’m conformed.
I seek transformation.