I've been in a good mood lately. Seeing my spiritual director on Maundy Thursday certainly helped. And I have been more spiritually engaged this week.

I still long to see more of God moving. I still long for the prophetic to come alive in me. I still long for the words that others have given over me to come to fruition.

Inside i still doubt. Inside i am certain that those things are not for someone as insecure, rotten, naked and shallow as I. But inside I cannot repress the dream.

My heart beat continues and I am alive.